All my life I have been seeking inner clarity, to know and understand my truth. I have read MANY books, listened to many awesome speakers and attended workshops and attempted to practice what I learnt but still there seemed a void within a space, an emptiness and loneliness. I had an intellectual understanding that God is Love and there were times that I definitely felt that in my heart but always I seemed to loose it and have to search for it again. I read that we lived in a Field of Infinite Energy and that we could create whatever we desired but I could not hold any belief long enough for it to fully create. I was definitely a discouraged seeker and I had become a loner. I loved people and wanted to be with them but needed many hours of alone time to rejuvenate and stabilize myself so I could interact again.

There were many aspects of my life that were not how I wanted them to be. My marriage relationship was on its way 'out the window'; I loved my husband and wanted to be with him but could not understand why we could not seem to get really close. I was creating poverty, there was much ill health in my large family, and I did not have employment that was satisfying.

I was ready to give up. Then, by pure chance, synchronicity, I met an Avatar master at a market in Emundi, Queensland.  She offered me the free introduction to Avatar, I thought 'Why not, what can I loose?'  We explored the poverty creation and immediately I could see that my beliefs were creating my experience. It took a little more coaching before I was willing to be vulnerable enough to truly get in and explore my beliefs. What a relief, though, when I did.  What a relief to realize that the biggest block to my progress was a lot of evidence I had collected about fear and failure and the discouragement kept me from trying again.  I began to clear out some stuff out of my mental closet that was no longer serving me and to install and sustain some beliefs about what I really wanted to be experiencing.

That was over 2 years ago.  What has changed, pretty much everything.  My relationship with my husband is entirely different; I am developing a gentle and compassionate relationship with my children and parents. I have friends all over the world who appreciate who I am and I am able to truly appreciate them.  I am much more relaxed and appreciative of life, I have been able to take the stillness that I experienced alone and deliberately create it whenever I want to.  I realized there was no separation between what I experienced as God's Love and myself and allowed myself to feel Love whenever and wherever, not just when I thought I deserved it. I wake with gratitude and hope in my heart. I have work that is satisfying and inspiring and is contributing to a better world. I experientially realize I am Source of my reality, my experience and from that space I can choose what I would like to experience and use the tools to create it.

When discouragement shows its head, I use encouragement to dissolve it.

In short the Avatar tools have more than given me back my life, they have connected me with a space within me where I create my own answers and connect with all life in a celebration of life that will just keep growing and expanding forever.

Judy Grayson